Posted by Kennan on November 11, 2000 at 07:18:37:
In Reply to: Few thoughts posted by Quintius on November 11, 2000 at 06:23:36:
Well, the burnt out part was intentional. With an elf leading ragers, Kennan killed lightwalkers.. In fact, most of my pks were lightwalkers. The roleplay was that a paladin, a champion of light, of course feeling guilty inside about killing lightwalkers but still trying to justify it with his duty, his dedication to the Hall, ultimately Order, being a priest of Nepenthe. After a while, Kennan just got really discouraged. His god for one reason or another did not answer his prayers and all he was doing was bending the paladin code to try to sleep at night. It was also the reason why he left Arbiters. No offense to the elf rager leader (sawwy don't remember your name), but I took the oppourtunity to lose so I can get out and also redeem myself a little, paying for my sins. Of course I got punished for it, but it was the right decision. The reason why it took so long for me to decide to delete was first, I wanted to age die..second, Kennan was still trying to redeem himself in his god's eyes, with no success... third, this is by far my best char in by far the best class..I didn't have the heart to let go..and it took a bad mood for me to log on and go raid entropy...promising myself I would not flee from battle at all if I were to face opposition. I did, I died, I deleted.