Posted by Sardak/Judon on September 23, 1999 at 02:38:56:
I would like to start off with apology to the Immortals Judon--------------- Sardak------------- T
of Carrion Fields, and all of the players of CF. I am
somewhat new to CF, Sardak was my first hero, and Judon
was my first character in a leader position. As you all
know, I was denied for cheating. I died as Judon along
the river through of Galadon, my killer was a felar who
would not be able to carry much, and my hometown was
Galadon. I figured I would be able to get back to my corpse
before he had looted all my "precious" items. So, I run,
quick, quick to the river.
"You need a boat to go there."
Damn, there goes my plan. I forgot that I'm not an arial,
and I don't have a boat. Instead of facing my own idiocy
and defeat, I dropped link with Judon. I logged on with
Sardak and went to my corpse promptly. Wow, a set of black
gauntlets was all that was left. Fabulous. I was slightly
annoyed now, and feeling a little guilty. Moments later..
"An Immortal has transfered you."
Hmm, realm of the Dead. What an odd place.
"Judon arrives in a puff of smoke."
Oh, damnation. My future isn't looking so bright. I've
been caught. Great.
"An Immortal says, "You know why you are here?"
Yes, of course I knew, of course. I'd been an idiot, and
ruined all that I'd worked for. Sure, I know why I'm here.
"You have been denied access!"
I lean back in my chair and stare up at the ceiling for a
moment, expecting this all to be a bad dream. I blink my
eyes a couple times, praying that maybe some "God" could
set back time about 15 minutes. Heck, even 10 minutes. No.
Of course not, that was silly. I screwed up, and I'm going
to suffer the consequences. I didn't quite cry, but I was
certainly moving in that direction. How many hours had I
spent on those two characters? 400? Maybe. Not much to the
seasoned veterans of CF. But, heck, that's quite a bit for
me. In fact, that's a lifetime, a century. I felt like I
had just spent the past century on these characters. Was I
mad? Of course I was mad, I was livid. Who was I mad at?
Myself, only myself. I needed sleep. I fell asleep, plagued
by my own idiocy in the form of nightmares in my sleep. I
woke a bit later, and thought about what I did. What did I
do? What are cheaters actually doing? I was ruining the game
for everyone else. That's what it was. When I cheated, I
ruined the game for everyone else. I got things that no other
character could. Sure, now I feel guilt. I'll recover, sure.
But I'll never be cheating again. I'm sorry, CF.
I'm sorry, Blades. I failed the Empire. Keldem, Stahlhagen,
Radakh, and Arkarag..and Agorinth---I'm sorry.
I failed my dreams of being in the cult. Figures. Thanks for
the time together, Zaendiir, Draktha, and Laureant.
Of coursssse, Jazhul asss well. All of you make CF the place it
is.