Posted by Player on July 13, 2000 at 00:46:56:
In Reply to: A role, tell me what you think. posted by Felix on July 12, 2000 at 01:13:54:
> role *****************...my birth name, that which my mother gave
> role + to me when I first came upon this ignorant world. A name I
> role + have cast off like a snake casts off dead, useless skin...
> role + Skin that has become more cumbersome than it is worth.
> role + Growing up in a densely populated city, such as New Thalos,
> role + which is now known as Hamsah Mu'tazz, was the cause of
> role + all the suffering in my life...but I see now that it had
> role + to happen that way for me to achieve enlightenment.
> role + It did not come easy, however. Many years did I study at
> role + dimly lit libraries in hopes of 'bettering' myself, and my
> role + reputation in the eyes of the ones I now know as the Bound.
> role + I always felt 'it', though I could never place a name or
> role + even exactly what the feeling was, just simply that my
> role + life as it was was false...corrupted...and blind.
> role + I sought the council of the clergy and found nothing except
> role + an even stronger belief that those around me were even more
> role + false than myself. No answers could they give, only
> role + diversions. What was this 'thing' then, that I felt?
> role + Something that was always there from the first rule I was
> role + was made to follow, something that grew stronger and more
> role + blinding each time I suppressed the urges that I once called
> role + perverse, or cruel, or simply insane.
> role + On one of the many hot, moonlit nights that I wandered the
> role + deserts not caring whether I lived or died in this false
> role + world, I came upon the answer in a most mysterious way...
> role + As I was coming over a dune I saw a nomad boy on the
> role + next rise. And I realized that I was starving, I did not
> role + even notice it as I had wandered in hopelessness.
> role + I saw the beast and my first impulse was to kill him...to
> role + satiate my hunger with his life. Of course I had brought
> role + my own provisions of jerky and such...even a stout knife
> role + I had been given in my youth. Revulsion at the urges I
> role + had came to me and I reached for my pack. Yet, in that
> role + moment I felt I had injured myself by denying what was
> role + in me...
> role +
> role + As the boy fell before me I grinned in satisfaction.
> role + I had found the name for the sickness that had Bound
> role + man-kind and freed myself in the process.The name was Fear.
> role + Fear of being one's true self, fear of rejection, fear of
> role + everything...men make great cities, and marvelous things,
> role + yet they cower in a prison of fear. A prison that has
> role + become so ingrained into their lives that it is nearly
> role + impossible to see...
> role +
> role + No longer does fear lead me by it's invisible arm, I
> role + have heard the Call and it has saved me from imprisonment.
> role + But no call do I heed that is not my own...I shall
> role + hunt those who poison this realm with their hippocritical
> role + and ignorant retoric. A beast I have become...no, a beast
> role + I have always been, now I sharpen my claws. And I will don
> role + a new name, the Ancient name for the beast which lurks
> role + in the shadows of the wilds, *****, a true savage...A free soul.