Posted by Motiak on September 14, 2000 at 13:32:00:
Well, I am sure whoever reads this will have a field day with it. Frankly I don't care. I am putting this out here for "closure" whatever that means. The reason I am leaving is rather petty, small-minded, and stupid, I will admit to that. But noone will argue that with my leaving thera won't be losing much. I've been having fun in Thera since mid '95. There was a year there in the middle that I couldnt play because of military duty, but the rest was great. I was probably a "newbie" longer than anyone alive. but I liked being a newbie...expectations of me were lower. I had a few chars get leadership positions, and I think those that "interacted" with me valued those chars. So much for the fluff. Now for the Reason. Since I lost motiak's password, I have been going down hill...I put everything I had into motiak. I emailed the imps, and Astien and Zulg if anything could be done about the password...no answer. No sweat, there were buisy. But I also asked if it was even possible to have my role emailed to me if nothing else. I worked hard on that role. The role to me was the epitome of what an Empirial should be. I put over 200 hours of my life into that role. I even got no response to that. that irked me. I know it would have taken all of 2 mins to cut and paste my role and email it to me. I know they are buisy...but come on....2 minutes. I have been thinking of that more and more recently...and the more I think about it, the more upset I get. Is that petty, stupid, and unfounded...I am sure most of you will think so, and I would probably agree with any well formed argument stating it so. But it does not change how I feel. Is it my own fault that I don't have a copy of the role...no...my entire computer got wiped. Is it my own fault that I lost the password...probably. But this...upsetness...that grows in me everytime I think of them basically thumbing their noses at me has soured what enjoyment I used to get out of the game. Did they mean to thumb their noses at me? probably not. I wasnt that great, I admit that. But I asked for one thing...just my role from a char that I could no-longer play. And I was unintentionally snubbed. Well. I have thought about it, and let it eat into my enjoyment of the game one to many times. I am cutting my losses now. Imms...I don't know and don't even care why my request for my role was ignored, when other people have had their pk ratio emailed to them. I still think you do a great job on the best game there is in all of existance. Its just to bad I can't have fun with it anymore. I may log in my cabaled and empowered char to say goodbies...I may just let him time delete, Don't know yet. One last thing, for Thror more than anyone else. Man...you guys need to just lighten up. It's a game. People are going to have different oppinions than you. That is no reason to disparage them as people, or as players. You all should try to take some emotion OUT of your posts. Read the forum, instead of getting angry at something, try to understand WHY someone is saying what they are saying. And instead of calling them names, or saying why they shouldnt say what they say. Try saying WHY you beleive different. Its called being an adult. I see much of Adultness in your posts as Thror, and your character story. But when you throw on your minalcar face, I don't see much of it at all. (granted, I was being blatantly and purposfully inflamatory at the time).
Did they mean to intentionally hold back just to piss me off? probably not.
Were they just doing other things and ignore me? probably.
Does that lower my respect for you a bit...yeah. Should it...no. *shrug*.